Nov 16, 2009

be reconciled

I have fought it for years, claiming impossibility, fear, and self-protection. Calling them reasons when in reality they were excuses—a protective barricade putting as much distance between the truth and myself as possible.

We are called to reconcile. I am called to reconcile, to BE RECONCILED. Not just for little things. Not just with people who are easy. I am called to reconcile with him. Claiming for years that this was my desire, but he made it impossible. ALL things are possible with Christ who strengthens me.

“Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven—for she loved much. But he who is forgiven little, loves little.” She who has been forgiven much loves much. I have been forgiven of much and I do love much. No longer hidden behind walls built from shoddy excuses, I venture forth to this unknown place of not just forgiveness but of reconciliation.

I am tired of this fortress I have built. I am tired of trying to hold it together with fear and excuses. Give me a trumpet and I will march around these walls faithfully. And when the seventh day arrives I will blow my trumpet and shout for joy as these walls come tumbling down.

4 comments:

lizzyashby davidaaron said...

I feel like all of the pegs are falling into their holes and the lock is getting very close to opening and the door will swing wide open...

To the thing your heart desires more than anything..

Haley said...

Thanks Liz, it's harder to see in the middle of all of it, so your encouragement means a lot.

xoxo

Erquiaga Family said...

I love you! You are amazing--deep breaths. That little inner voice will tell you what to do and say and you will be at peace.

Haley said...

Thanks Heather!